stucky has lost her mind again

[tehstucky]

you'd think i'd learn the first time when i got my aunt out of jail and spent the whole 5 months of that time in sheer hell. i still and never will ever talk to that bitch again... but then my cousin (who i also can't stand but can tolerate a little bit more-so) comes to my house and tells me sob story after sob story over and over again (that i just ignored everytime) i got to the point where i realized she had to where to go except to live with our racist, clinically psychotic (it's the truth... i'm not joking) grandma, then it started getting to me.

here's this 16 year old girl living at our grandmas with her 22 year old boyfriend (eew) and she has nowhere to go except for here and i won't budge because i don't like her? of course i wasn't going to. i put up with the stories for 9 months now... why not 9 more?!

but theeeeeeen she hit my weakness. Kids!

she comes along yesterday and tells me that our grandma got ahold of my cousins insurance... not that she can do anything with it... but because shes under 18 and my grandma is the oldest in the house... grandmas name is on the card. AND grandmas been meddling in her finances. well that sucks... who cares? but then she says, "I'm really afraid that child services is going to put two and two together and realize i've been living with her, when i'm not supposed to. i'm supposed to be at my dads but i can't go there either. they might take my baby because i'm too unfit to provide good housing for it."

nailed me!

what the hell was i supposed to do with that besides offer our unused bedroom downstairs? so now i pretty much forced the entire house to live with some chick we all don't necessarily like... WITH her boyfriend who's old enough to realize what he's doing is sick... no i don't see anything from this affecting my family as far as legality goes... but this just sucks now.

so i tried venting to my mom and she nearly hung up on me because she doesn't want to hear anything negative about the situation. taylor needs help... taylor gets help... who cares how we all feel about it. that was her mentality when she forced her weight on the situation about my aunt.

this bitch is constantly bashing my sister... finally i stopped saying "i dont know... i don't know" and tried the defensive strategy... didn't work. she just stared at me like she knew better. she doesn't even know amy.

anyone in their right mind would say "you're stupid for doing this... again." but i'm not doing it for her OR her boyfriend (who is kinda cool though... except for the age difference... he digs video games as much as i do... we all have that in common)... i'm doing it for an unborn baby who would be living in one room for at least a year and never to come out unless it's to leave the house because it's the same house that literally, 20 people would all smoke in at one time. it's 100% unhealthy for it, not to mention my grandma. who knows what she would do with it when taylors sleeping or something. it's completely unsafe for it. even if it turned out to be the ugliest kid i've ever seen... it's still a baby who doesn't stand a chance in that house as long as they're there. so i open my house to his damn mother and father in hopes that i won't be throwing them on their ass with nowhere to go but at the same time praying they save their money quick and get an apartment that this time, the landlord won't keep walking in their house at will all hours of the night.

FUCK!!!!!!

the things i do for kids!

[tehstucky]

i miss my Colorado where i didn't have to deal with ANYBODYS problems. it was just me, amy, phillip, mom and the kids. that was it... then i come to alaska and not only has the weather been shit... but i haven't seen my dad more than 5 times in 2 years now? i've been a third party for some crack whore bitch, now i'm letting her spawn live in my basement, i've had financial problems up and down so bad i feel like i'm gonna hurl, i've cut out ALL my family except my sister-in-law, i've gained 4 fuckin pants sizes, and i still don't fuckin drive! oh... and now i'm debating whether i should work at walmart or not because it's extra money to help my husband pay shit with... so i pretty much HAVE to work there cuz i'm a dropout with zero experience... who the fuck's gonna hire this bitch?!


FML

i'm so close to saying "fuck money... i don't care if we become low income... i wanna go home, whereever the hell that might be cuz it sure as fuck ain't here!"

[EZE]

Yesterday, My uncle and Aunt showed up unannounced, the other day they just had shingles. I had to get out of the house due to my low immune system. I walked in the heat for 2 hours without water. Then my dad start yelling at me due to his anger problems and the heat.

[tehstucky]

Originally Posted by EZE

Yesterday, My uncle and Aunt showed up unannounced, the other day they just had shingles. I had to get out of the house due to my low immune system. I walked in the heat for 2 hours without water. Then my dad start yelling at me due to his anger problems and the heat.

i wouldn't have let them in if i was your dad. be all "get in the bubble, people!"

[Dillon]

My story is too long to write.

Don't feel bad, guys, you're not alone.

[tehstucky]

yeah... i'm starting to get used to her being there now and trying to forget everything else. main focus... baby! it's all about the baby right now and she hasn't really done anything yet to piss me off so i think it'll be cool.

[Forsake]

Family sucks, I know how that is and is sucks you have to go through all of that

[tehstucky]

i fucked up today. what else is new.

i pretty much tried sugar coating a lie to my mom about a conversation i had with my cousin where she said my mom was a bitch. well it worked... kept them two from knocking each other out before my mom comes back from work for two weeks... well me being in a fucked up mood today, decided it was a good idea to tell mom how the conversation REALLY went...

now mom's ready to kick this bitch out... which i'm ready to do too... again... but this time it's gonna be because i opened my big mouth. she deserves it, of course... she sat there looking down on my 3 year old because he likes his otter pop cut up and in a bowl to eat instead of the typical push it out of the plastic way. she comes around telling us all this shit so we eventually had her move in and now i NEVER see her... there's all these things she looks down on us for and it's never her and i'm feeling done with this bitch but for some damn reason i can't stand it when something happens because of me, regardless of what the reason is. so that's where i'm at today. on top of that... i just realized how incredibly boring my life is. my husbands depressed. my sisters head has been hurting to the point that it made her upchuck yesterday and nobody knows why. there's nobody to interact with anymore in life except online and that makes things more depressing because i get along and relate to those people more than i do with my own damn dad who i can't seem to pay even an ounce of attention to me OR my family... FML... it's bullshit. sick of it. wanna move. don't know where to go so i don't wanna move. can't move. need to QUIT moving but don't want to be here in alaska anymore. life sucks at the moment...

now i know how everyone here felt when they were feeling depressed and i would be a major bitch about it all... sorry guys i'm finally getting how you guys feel except in my case it's not relationship problems... it's just people in general!